not feelin so good today. alot of good things happenin, just not feelin it.....aaaaaa there will b days like this! hard to click away, hard to focus. hard to do anything, exsept for stare off into space. i had a vision this mornin.... a vision of sleepless nights, and crazy bizzy days.....wait....that is my life! just cant seem to muster up anything poinient today, as if i ever could....mostly just ramblins of a mad man!...

i have serious back problems, and right when i was getting my date for surgery, my insurance gave me the big red "d" letter......denied!...reson, chronick, bone on bone injury!... ait den, i know a guy....who purposly botched a bank robbery(no shit) because he had a bad heart...he got 4 years, in the pen...... he also got...open heart surgery, his teeth fixed, meds for his chronic depression.......and 4 years off the grid....no bills, no worries. just rehab, and fixum-ups....when he was released, they sent him out the door with a check for 3 grand........ wow..... i just dont get it...... like i said, today is just one of those days! it comes with being manic! either im wired to the gills....or flat lined....there is no inbetween! ~g~